new beginning?

how could I consider this a new beginning if everything feels like before...

http://www.musica.com/letras.asp?letra=1104738

and again

asshole, asshole, asshole!!!

remember, just forget about yourself and help her to be happy....

all we know

'cause all we know is falling, it falls
remember how 'cause I know
that we won't forget at all

stupid

stupid! stupid! stupid!

why I can't learn from my mistakes??

stupid! stupid! stupid!

getting use

Did I listen to pop music because I was miserable?
Or was I miserable because I listened to pop music?
Rob from High Fidelity

Things aren't as they were before and will NEVER be the same, I just have to get use to it. It's so damn hard

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Now playing: RadioHead - Paranoid android via FoxyTunes

drunk

I'm kinda drunk right now and I could say I was kinda happy sometime across the night, but now I'm just feeling sad and lonely...

It was really nice to spend some time and talk with her again... only if things could be as it were before I made such a stupid mistake...

worst of all? I still like her...

Update: No, I'm not feeling sad and lonely because of her, it's just a feeling that has been with me lately...

speechless

I'm getting bored of this, I'm just trying to help as I've done in the past and again I was lectured for doing it...

Why things weren't different? always a candidate, never a winner...

More and more reasons to quit.

worth it?

things like this makes me wonder if it's really worth it...

fallido intento

This could have been the best week of the year for me, but since I haven't learnt from my mistakes everything is going down hill...

now I just have to remove another name from my list of friends....

I wish...

From Random Pics

I made a wish some time ago, too bad it didn't come true

careless

sometimes I just want to get careless about everyone and everything.

worthless?

Puede que pienes que no valgo la pena, pero has sabido demostrarme que tú tampoco la vales....

Brindo por las mentiras que me dijiste, las que me dices y las que le dices....

Sólo espero que recuerdes que nada está oculto entre el cielo y la tierra, que algún día comprendas que debes aceptar las consecuencias de tus actos.

Espero que nunca sufra lo que yo sufrí....

LuN.....

about accusor

I've been invited by fleder to do this, so here I go!

• Each blogger has to tell 8 things about itself
• Write this rules
• Choose 8 bloggers, write their names and invite them to play
• Leave a comment on the blog of each invited person

1. I'm a proud fan of football, but I only love 2 teams, Atlético Nacional and Manchester United, don't ask why
   

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2. I hate to buy clothes
3. I love to buy shoes! :-) (I buy shoes once per year though)
   

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4. I used to hate dancing, but it could be fun and not as hard as I thought it would be...
5. I'm getting use to being an asshole, but I'm trying hard to change it...
6. I don't buy any pirated CD or DVD, that's why I don't have many of this things
   

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7. People use to forget about me
8. as someone else wrote about me sometime ago "I get sad often. Very often. Ok, always. I like to blog about how pathetic my life is. This is very funny and makes everybody laugh, which is why my blog got popular and I started making friends."
   
   That's how my life is and I don't have to add anything, so he did a great job.

I'm not sure if everyone is going to accept my invitation, but here they are...

Valen/Lapa
Mugres
Alfabravo
Laura
Redeker
Azul
Siramthar
ori

I'm waiting....

become

I say hello, but you're not here
the thing I wanted the most
and now there's nothing but tears
Hello hello, welcome my fears
being the best I could be
anyone saw that I..

Try not to see
what you did to me

So you could be here
I try not to breathe
forbid me to feel
So I could be...

Won't you stop that
What you're doing to me?
It's gettin harder to live
Won't you come back
from the place that you're in
And become what i need

I say hello, there's no one here
I'm all alone in this room
And nothing seems to be clear
Day after day, year after year
And everything still's the same
The only thing that has...

Changed is that you
Walked out of my life
Without giving a reason or
Why all broke down
Into my own eyes
Making me what I am so now ...

Won't you stop that
What you're doing to me?
It's gettin harder to live
Won't you come back
from the place that you're in
And become what I need

Won't you stop that
What you're doing to me?
It's gettin harder to live
Won't you come back
from the place that you're in
And become what I need

Won't you stop that
What you're doing to me?
It's gettin harder to live
Won't you come back
from the place that you're in
And become what I need

The Hall Effect- Become

Tu Nombre

From Random Pics

From Random Pics

hay cosas que no deberían ser, pero son....

asshole

From Compostela 11...

I'm the guy who talks with you about boooks, Renoir and Monet and I'm the one who gets a coffe with you. I'm the one who is always there when you need someone to fix your computer... the one you can call when you're feeling sad and you need to talk with somebody... I'm the guy who picks up the broken bottle.... but I realized I'm not the man you want to be with.... I'm just your best friend......

ranting

From now I'm going to write this blog in english.... don't ask why....

what could I say about my life?? well, I'm swamped... I have to do a lot of things so I'm sleeping 2 or 3 hours per day and that makes me feel so tired.... I'm becoming a grumpy bastard

I'm having a lot of troubles in my job so I think I should quit before things get worse. I need the money though... I'm not doing well at my University so I'm kinda sad due that... any advices?

enough whining!!! time to move on has come!!!!

I couldn't be happier of being a hattrick staff member, I've met some great guys there... I mean, I can even consider some of them as brothers (Koldo, Grosso and Domingo, you know I'm talking about you! :P)... They've helped me with a lot of things on last months, and now I only have thankfully words to CHPP-Trixibelle, BC-Redeker, LA-Harald, HT-Johan, GM-CMarQueZ, GM-Nagucci, GM-Rlinney2001, and many other that I should mention... :)

Of course, most of the people that I consider as friends were there to! some of them disappointed me, but that doesn't matter anymore! at least I know who will be always there

as you could see here, I've been listening kudai lately... it's a shame that they aren't what they used to be....

PS: I got tired of lies.... it's too late....
PS2: ok, I didn't tell you "happy international women's day" in time... my bad

escapar

Kudai - Escapar
Veo sombras que se apagan Veo mil fotos del ayer Mil recuerdos que se acaban Queda un sueño aun por ver Quiero escapar y despertar Sin saber del tiempo Quiero respirar sin nunca regresar Y quiero vivir quiero existir Sentir el silencio Ya no quiero hablar Sólo quiero encontrar un dia de paz	Veo las calles del mañana Veo la ausencia del ayer Y mil sueños que se fueron Mil historias que se hundieron Como barcos que se pierden en el mar Quiero escapar y despertar Sin saber del tiempo Quiero respirar sin nunca regresar Y quiero vivir quiero existir Sentir el silencio Ya no quiero hablar Sólo quiero encontrar un dia de paz	Quiero escapar y despertar Sin saber del tiempo Ya no quiero hablar Sólo quiero encontrar un dia de paz Yo solo quiero escapar (quiero escapar) Nunca regresar (y ya no quiero nunca regresar) Y quiero escapar (ya no saber jamas del tiempo) Y no regresar (sólo quiero estar en silencio)

forgotten

me sorprende la capacidad de la gente para olvidar(me)..... ya me canse de ver como "todo el mundo" piensa en lo hijueputa que soy con todos... en lo hijueputa que soy con mis papas... en lo hijueputa que he sido con laura... en lo hijueputa que he sido como amigo... en lo hijueputa que he sido como worker... en lo hijueputa que soy como compa;ero de trabajo.... en fin....

aveces solo queda cerrar los ojos, aguantar la respiracion y esperar la ola que te va a arrastrar....

nobody's fool?

recuerdos, traicion, linux, php, ajax

maybe tomorrow...

I've been down and I'm wondering why These little black clouds Keep walking around With me With me It wastes time And I'd rather be high Think I'll walk me outside And buy a rainbow smile But be free They're all free So maybe tomorrow I'll find my way home So maybe tomorrow I'll find my way home I look around at a beautiful life Been the upperside of down Been the inside of out But we breathe We breathe I wanna breeze and an open mind I wanna swim in the ocean Wanna take my time for me All me So maybe tomorrow I'll find my way home So maybe tomorrow I'll find my way home So maybe tomorrow I'll find my way home So maybe tomorrow I'll find my way home So maybe tomorrow I'll find my way home So maybe tomorrow I'll find my way home

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ya es "maNana" y sigo despierto esperando..... que mal que ni las promesas mas simples se cumplan.....

gracias por hacer de este mal dia un poco peor....

pd: acentos omitidos porque no puedo sacarlos...

speechless

In words of Moloko and Alfabravo:

Nothing can come close To this familiar feeling We say it all without Ever speaking

I know that it's not the same situation, but their/his words are useful.

some days you just want to drop dead....

deprecated

[1] In computer software standards and documentation, deprecation is the gradual phasing-out of a software or programming language feature. [2] This term is used to refer to obsolete structures that should not be used for new applications but remain valid [3] A deprecated element or attribute is one that has been outdated by newer constructs.

pd: pensar que yo hice muchas de estas cosas

surfacing

cuba libre

Surfacing
slipknot

Running out of ways to run
I can't see, I can't be
Over and over and under my skin
All this attention is doing me in

Fuck it all! Fuck this world!
Fuck everything that you stand for!
Don't belong! Don't exist!
Don't give a shit!
Don't ever judge me!

Picking through the parts exposed
Taking shape, taking shag
Over and over and under my skin
All this momentum is doing me in!

Fuck it all! Fuck this world!
Fuck everything that you stand for!
Don't belong! Don't exist!
Don't give a shit!
Don't ever judge me!

You got all my love, livin' in your own hate
Drippin' hole man, hard step, no fate
Show you nothin', but I ain't holdin' back
Every damn word I say is a sneak attack
When I get my hands on you
Ain't a fucking thing you can do
Get this cuz you're never gonna get me
I am the very disease you pretend to be

I am the push that makes you move

quote: "A veces cuando las cosas están muy bien todo puede cambiar al estado de MUY MAL."

broken

la despedida.....

y estoy aquí de nuevo, sentado en el cesped mientras el sol alumbra en lo alto y la dirección del viento hace que me llegue todo el humo de ese maldito cigarrillo.

he caido muy bajo... tan bajo que ya nadie puede ayudarme, he perdido todo lo que alguna vez pude considerar mio, y estoy solo en la nada...

"tengo que correr, tienes que correr, a toda velocidad"... maldito fito.... siempre cantando frases tan ciertas...

ahora tengo tiempo de pensar sin presiones.... solo debo esperar el golpe final que acabará con mi existencia... no mas tristezas... no mas desencanto...

sé que tengo lo que me merezco, por eso no me quejo... pero haría tantas cosas de diferente manera si pudiera.... aunque ya es tarde para todo... ya ni siquiera lagrimas me quedan....

gracias a todos los que alguna vez me apoyaron cuando estaba mal (sobretodo a ti, que siempre estuviste aquí para este pobre idiota enamorado...), perdónenme por haberlos defraudado...

Es la hora de huir, la despedida -- fito paéz